Oct 26, 2008

Whatever happened to my lunch box?

The past few days I have been listening to a lot of old school John Mayer. Freshman year of college, anyone? These songs are just so dang good, and it has me on a major nostagic kick. I just want to jam to some Coldplay, Howie Day, and maybe some Guster thrown in there. Listening to John sing about St. Patrick's Day and 3x5s makes me think about morning naps between class, George Forman grilled ham and cheese, Ruffles and French onion dip, and singing Tenacious D the entire way to Lafayette.



This was SIX years ago.

Oct 22, 2008

sign me up.


Recently I have become OBSESSED with staying in an overwater hut in Bora Bora. Did you hear me? OBSESSED. First I need to pay off my credit card, visit my Kate in Portland, move to Austin THEN save up enough money for Bora Bora.

OR.

You could pay for the vacation.

Please? Thanks so much!

Oct 20, 2008

happy things

Fall.
The O.C. marathons -- Caaallliiiffooooorrrrnnniiaaaaaa here we coooooooooome.
Spending too much money at Old Navy.
New job.
Death Cab for Cutie.
Ned and Chuck.
Sunday picnics.
Hand holding.
Moose tracks ice cream.
Cowboy boots.
Leggings.
Cardigans.
PJs before 9:00 a.m.
Relationship blankets.
Pumpkins.
Cheese spread.
Cafeteria salads.
Ruffles - chips and fashion enhancement.
Boys in sweaters.
BBQ sandwiches.
Beasts.
And his face.

Oct 14, 2008

holy crap

About a month ago I made the biggest decision of my life. I decided to quit my job of almost 2 years.

I had never been completely happy with my job, and in recent months I was growing to hate it. I was completely stressed out, and I didn't feel like I was doing good enough. I tried really hard, but it was never good enough. And honestly I didn't care. I wasn't passionate about it.

The stress was taking over me. From the moment I woke up until the moment I fell asleep I was stressed. I'd wake up with a terrible knot in my stomach. I'd go to sleep with that same knot. I'd try to forget about work at night and on the weekends, but the anxiety took over.

I was expected to work late hours and come in early (on my last week there I came in at 6:00 in the morning -- wish I was kidding). I know it may seem like I had the worst job ever. I didn't. It's a really good job, but it wasn't for me. I wasn't willing to make my job my life. I didn't want to make the scarifices.

So, I looked for something, anything else to do. I found a job. They hired me.

Then I almost shit my pants. Was I making the right decision? Would I like this new position? What if they are mean? Am I going to be good enough? When will I get paid? Ahhhh!

I mean I worked for amazing people who really cared about me and my well being, but they didn't know how unahppy I was. I walked down the hallway, shut my boss' door and let it all out. I told her I was offered a new job, and I would be leaving in 2 weeks and how unhappy I had been. I explained how I didn't feel successful and I wasn't passionate about my work. I was letting my clients down, my bosses down, and myself down. She completely understood and said she wanted me to be happy and thanked me for being so honest.

Two weeks later I started my new job. It's not my dream job (ACL Fest are y'all hiring?), but it's work that I think I can be successful at. And I am really enjoying it. That's all I really need right now.